Did you ever think about how there are those women who were just born to be home-makers? They always look perfect, and their children look perfect and if you were to just drop by their house it would be prefectly decorated and clean.
I am soooo not one of those people and I want to know their secrets. I have lived in my house now for a year, I have not hung one thing on a wall, the garage and basement are still full of stuff that I need to do something with, and I don't know when I am going to do any of these things because I struggle to get my day to day chores done.
It is probably partly my lack of sleep talking, but lately I just feel like it is impossible. I spend all day cooking meals and cleaning up and doing laundry and it is never done. It is just so discouraging. I feel like I don't have time to do anything extra. I really want to know what I am doing or not doing to make the most of my time.
Part of the problem is that my baby (without exaggerating) wants to eat every two hours day and night. I know lots of people who have had difficult babies, and now I understand. I feel like the worst mom ever because every time she cries I just think, "not again." I have been spoiled with three children who slept through the night, but even with those kids, I have never been very good at staying on top of everything.
Don't get me wrong, I love all of my children, they are the best things in my life, in fact, I may just be asking for it but I want to have one or two more. And I love being a stay at home mom. Those people who know me best know that I never want to have another job, I am happiest being mom and I think someday when my kids are in school may be the day that I can get everything done. I admire those women who can go to work and still get everything done. I am really just having a "sorry for myself" moment and wanted to vent to cyber space, and I know I just need to remember how blessed I am and keep on plucking away at the list of things to be done.
p.s. the hormones also come because I am trying to lose baby weight and so I am dieting and so it makes for a bad combination...TIRED AND HUNGRY! Not that I am really hungry, just hungry for treats, last night I had a dream that I cheated on my diet...pretty pathetic huh?